Pessimistic

Dear Readers,

Have that one person that "got away"?
Well I do, everyone does and deep inside you know who it is.
I bet you when you read the first sentence in your head, it pinpointed on who exactly is that person in your life that "got away."

Ahh sad huh?
First you meet this stranger, mine was pretty awkward.
Then you gradually grow closer and close and closer till finally the feelings you've both created can't be contained anymore and just bursts out of your chest onto the open air.
It could have either been embarrassing, amazing or just down right stupid.
But you know in your bones that if you didn't say anything, this one was going to get away.

Then you go through this phase of being happy with each other and just slowly loosing each other.
Because all i could say is when you're apart from someone for a long time, your relationship strains and yearns for attention. And yet you can't give it because maybe you or the significant other doesn't try as hard. One of you will be yearning for the other to chase even if you leave them but as it is, they wont.
Sorry to make you feel horrible but they just wont, it's not how it goes.
This is not some movie! Real life ain't like that. I've learnt that the person, wont chase after. They'll just leave like there was nothing there. And all you've built is practically just dust.

Im no trying to be pessimistic but that's goes the story ends.
Then like from the beginning you return on being strangers as both of you have changed.
I wish my life was a movie, and that some prince charming would come and chase right after me if I were to run out of that big white door.

All girls wish for that prince charming, well let me tell you something. He's never coming.
Don't get me wrong, whenever I love, I give it my all like there's no tomorrow.
But in the back my mind i'd always think, "is he going to hurt me?"
Would he catch me if i fell?

Love Always,
ESJ
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