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Dear Readers,
Hot daymmm im dont with high school! my last exam date was on 10th June, now were all just waiting on prom and then that'll be over and yeah. What exactly am i suppose to do after that? mmmmmm, im pretty happy about not having to wake up everday at dawn and get ready and spend my whole day at this so called "shit hole/hell hole/prison/detention/juvinile" hahaha
Im kind of scared, i mean what am i suppose to do after prom? there's nothing for me to look forward to, except for university. But that's a whole new experience all together, apart of me doesnt want to let go of the glory days in high school but the other side of me wants to let go and is HAS been 10 long years know?
Sometimes i begin to freak and spaz out by myself thinking about the future, im going to get old and frumpy. What if nobody loves me? What if i become a total failure. So many what ifs'.
Get married, have kids and yeah that'll be my life? no. Thats not what i intend to do for myself, i wish to do something that's unforgettable. I want to leave my stamp on this earth and leave knowing that everybody will remember my legacy. High school was a good experience, but im planning on making it last a little longer.

To be honest, i liked school. I mean the atmosphere, the people, the work. It was all like some sort of reward for me to see my friends everyday. I loved my friends, they were all so great and its as if their family already now. I had a great group of my best friends, it was as if we were so close that like we didnt have any interest to go and hang with our other aquaintances. Dont get me wrong i did have lots of friends, but those were the people i spent my days with and i dont regret it one bit. Their friends that i made for life, cliche i know. LOL

i have to go have more fun now!
lots of love,
ESJ
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